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i wish my love for you would never fade away.. but wishes dont always come true. [September9,2004|9:42pm] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | same direction ~hoobastank ] wow. i feel like i really havent even written in here..! its been liek sooooo long. im like sooo grounded right now its not even funie. no cell fone, no texts, no house fones, no aol, and no goin out! it sux. all cuz i raised a $1000 bill for my cell and like $600 for da house fone. all cuz of my effin calls to u kno who. and all my text messages!!!! grrr! my cell fone is like permanently taken away.. well i still have it but i cant use it.. at all! ugh! i wish i was good. i wish i listened. and i wished i could never get myself involved into something that i end up regreting! it sux sooooo much and school is kinda bad this year. my classes r hard as fuk and now i cant cheer! ugh. ha nd ud never guess who i saw in the mall on monday!.. rommie. holy shit. and i found a letter that i rote to him in 4th grade, but i never gave it to him. freaky shiet. haha. funnehhh!! well i gota bounce b4 i get myself into more trouble. byeee xoxo burn it all

iD cRy thEse teArs.. nOt foR jOy oR hapPineSs bUt cUz i neVer thOugHt yOud hUrt mE tHe wAy yOu diD. [August22,2004|11:07pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | whats happenin -ying yang twins ] heyy lo0seRrz! today was a lil boring.. i went by my grandmas for dinner with other cousins.. it was kinda boring. but oh well lol. nothin better to do. then we came home round like 7ish. but last night daymn! i was up till like 3am playin cards with my cousins. we were playin texas holdem' for like ever. since like 10!! i was winnign for like ever and i had almost every1's money.. then my cousins bf mike took it! well he actually won it. n i was so pissed lol! we each played with only 2 dollars but there was a total of like 16 on the table. at least i didnt loose any money lol. but mike won it all! well actually not all of the money.. we had to quit cuz the game woulda gone on forever!!!! i cant wait to do sum more school shopping!! im like so excited.. these r all the shoes that i wana get n prolly will get.. well hopefully lol : 1. new phatfarms: white n silver 2. more new phatfarms: white n baby blue ..............(im only gettin these cuz lost mi old 1s!) 3. converse: all star classic black (low tops) 4. uhh. converse star player: pink and raspberry! ..............(these shoes r soo cute!!!) 5. nike air forces (gota hav em') 6. and these bebe shoes from bakers.. thats guna b alot of money! lol. oh well. and then i gota do sum real shopping at hollister, abercrombie, pacsun, espress, xios ... n maybe aeropastale >> **.oh yeahh n by the way.. never let a guy treat u like shit. no1 deserves that no matter what. and never beg or continuously ask for forgiveness.. cuz if u have to do that. u were never meant to be. guys can b such dirt bags but u jes gota go on with ur life. ull b thinkin that he'll completely forget about u but im jes wishin that he will forget about me. cuz knowing ill always have sumthing for him makes me wonder y. but if a guy tries to wrap u around his little finger.. stiffen up. dunt let him. he should b the 1 wrapped around your finger. guys jes think they r the shhit n can treat girls how ever they want. well guess what.. they r wrong. they are completely, 100% wrong! no1 girl should b treated like shit. and for the reason that guys have a tendency to do that, they should b treated like shit. for sum odd UNknown reason they love making us cry.. well guess what.. ive had enuff of ur bullshit and its tiem for me to move on. and sum day ill look back on this n say. whats done is done.. you can only make the future better.. and thats what i will have done. bc i wont b lookin back at ur lame ass.. im b lookin forward to wats ahead.. joys that u never gave me. and best of all.. there wont b any heart breaks like that 1s u put em through.** << ........deDikaTed: u kno who u r. nd as i sed last time u did this to me: ((.u stand by my side wen things r perfect but yet u run away n hide wen the tough gets going.)) i never wanted to let u go.. but now it seems like i hav 2 </3 britt xoxo burn it all

im sorrie things had to turn out the way they did, but i know ill regret it all [August18,2004|11:16am] [ mood | bitchy ] [ music | shorty/put it on the floor ~ busta ] hey waDdup guys. joannas home!!!! ahh im so excited.. but shEs like guna b so bUsy ill never c her b4 scHool staRts! its guna sucK! oh weLl. i duno wat happeNed between me n jEr las night but we werEnt really talkin at aLl. i duno wats up wiThg all that tho. aNd i really wanteD to go to his houSe 2nite. i gues i caNt go now. i guess i wAs kina bein a bitCh las nite. sorriee!! well matts at acAr show today with his friEnd. and i suppose i wOnt b talkin to hiM till much laTer if even that. i really waNa go to jeRs tonight!!! like sO bad! i hope we wOrk things ouT cuz i really wanNa go! and i wana c thE exorciSt with hiM too! sorriE jeR.. <3 xoxo 7 ashes | burn it all

* >> .if u werent [.r e a l.] , id make you up.. now. << * [August3,2004|7:15pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | 'back at one' -brian mcknight ] wow this week has been ehh kinda boring. chris came down saturday night. we had a bbq for my lil sister on sunday. cristina me n chris went to 711 and we saw rommie. well me n him rnt talkin anymore but its all good lol. i think? lol anyways. kristie hooked up with the infamous rich. a lil pissed bout that but its iight i gues lol. hmm.. imma go to the movies and mall sumtime this week if any1 wants to join us. jeremy is away in virgina but comin back soon i think. and well im goin to wildwood august 10 to 17 i think.. it was supposed to b 19 to 27 but no1 can watch my doggie and cat.. and the worst news of all::: SOUNDGARDEN ISNT HAVING ANYMORE TEEN NIGHTS!! im so pissed n its all cuz u stupid asses dont go.. they werent making enough money. ahh! thiz sux.. i really wanted to go for the next two or three weeks.. ahh! IF ANY1 KNOWS OF ANY CLUBS THAT R NEARBY THAT HAVE LIKE A TEEN NIGHT OR ANY CLUBS THAT R TEEN CLUBS OR WATEVER.. LEMME KNOW. AND ABYSS IS TOO FAR AND SOUNDGARDEN WELL... ^ AND METRO AND RIO I DUNO WHERE THEY R. PLZ LEMME KNOW IF U KNOW OF ANY CLUBS. I WANA EFFIN DANCE!!!! thanx.. byee xoxo <3 burn it all

>>who knew that so much || l a u g h t e r || could cover up a puddle of || t e a r s || ?<< [July14,2004|5:42am] yo. u guys want a great laugh? u gota read this entry. take no offense to any of it. its a lil sexist but it has nothing to do with sex but countries.. i just dont knwo wat thats called.. well this indian dude was talkin to "me" today well actually it really wasnt me.. it was kristie.. except he never knew that.. well i guess its all fun and games wen u stay up till 6 o clock to argue with sum kid who thinks his race will eventually conquer the world.. wen i bet 0.5% of all americans never heard of guyanese ppl.. wow.. kristie is 1 hewll of a funny person. she definately knows how to make someone laugh. [..*please comment on this entry and tell me wat ur thoughts r.. and please do not take any offense to anythign that goes down in this conversation. its 5:46am and we r soo damn tired and we honestly still have no idea wat we meant wen we sed sum of it.. so u prolly wont either*..] Blustar1489 [5:01 AM]: wel.. i dont no about you but tall white skiny people are usualli much more atractive then short fat indian people GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:01 AM]: hmmm if ignorance is bliss why arent more ppl like u happy Blustar1489 [5:01 AM]: oo so that why she likes you... Blustar1489 [5:02 AM]: big words at 5am _dont work well-->sry GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:03 AM]: and since when do anorexic redheads look good? Blustar1489 [5:04 AM]: so yeah why are you still sitin at your computer ..maybe cuz your ass is so big you cant lift it.. oo and i hear that you can lift up to 350 then how big IS your ass GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:05 AM]: lol so now ur mad cuz i got a bigger ass than u Blustar1489 [5:05 AM]: i........like.........food..... GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:05 AM]: ok than bulimic GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:05 AM]: whichever u like better Blustar1489 [5:05 AM]: nope not that one either i ahet to stuff mi face and yeah the whole throwin up thing sry doesnt work well GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:06 AM]: then i guess the last thing it could be is just straight up ugliness Blustar1489 [5:06 AM]: fyi(this is funer now that you stooped to mi level) GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:07 AM]: it is GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:07 AM]: i like shuttin up ugly redheads that are jealous becuz a guy has a bigger ass than them Blustar1489 [5:08 AM]: see no when a fat black grl has a big ass thats hot .....and when a fat indian(hahaha your indian) has a big but thats just gross Blustar1489 [5:08 AM]: oo yewah and thanx for pointing out that i have red hair for me a million times Blustar1489 [5:09 AM]: i never would have guessed_with out you wear would i be in this world?? GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:09 AM]: so ur sayin that u like lookin at black girls wit a big ass Blustar1489 [5:09 AM]: nah guys find that attractive _you never watch MTV? GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:09 AM]: nope Blustar1489 [5:10 AM]: wait.. i have a seriouse question for you ...!!! GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:10 AM]: and once again if ignorance is bliss why arent u happier Blustar1489 [5:10 AM]: stop joking around for a sec Blustar1489 [5:10 AM]: big work_5am_not good Blustar1489 [5:10 AM]: but no seriously... Blustar1489 [5:11 AM]: if white people watch MTV and black people watch BET what the fuck do you indians watch??? GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:11 AM]: seeing as how im not indian i wouldnt know Blustar1489 [5:11 AM]: IRTW? Blustar1489 [5:11 AM]: dont shoot! Blustar1489 [5:12 AM]: yea you are your some type of inian what the fuck kind of last name is kanigarasha Blustar1489 [5:12 AM]: indian* GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:12 AM]: not at all Blustar1489 [5:13 AM]: ... GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:13 AM]: im guyanese Blustar1489 [5:13 AM]: chinese? GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:13 AM]: yupp GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:13 AM]: exactly Blustar1489 [5:14 AM]: wow i never met a chinese person that looks and smells liek an indian GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:14 AM]: ok Blustar1489 [5:15 AM]: oo dude do you wath that show that has all those chinese peole doing stupid stuff??? MXC i think it is? wow thats so funni youe at fish? Blustar1489 [5:15 AM]: wow i feel so bad for you people GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:16 AM]: you people GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:16 AM]: ? Blustar1489 [5:16 AM]: i would hate for mi culture to be made fun of liek that.. i can just imagin then making mi dad swing into houses GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:17 AM]: ok it would be even funnier if u knew what culture u were makin fun of Blustar1489 [5:17 AM]: i dont no you chinks are all the same Blustar1489 [5:18 AM]: i see a slanted eye i go"CHINESE PERSON" who cares if there philipino or guynesase GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:18 AM]: and that might hurt my feelings if i was asian Blustar1489 [5:19 AM]: wait you just you wear chinese Blustar1489 [5:19 AM]: were* same dif. GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:19 AM]: see if u were smart enough to know ur geography u would know that guyana is in south america Blustar1489 [5:19 AM]: you black? GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:20 AM]: what does black have to do wit south america Blustar1489 [5:20 AM]: its 5:19 in the morning who the fuk cares about graphics GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:20 AM]: wow ur just all around stupid GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:20 AM]: ur not even mediocre Blustar1489 [5:20 AM]: wow you should so call mi cell 2018356191 GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:20 AM]: nah im good Blustar1489 [5:21 AM]: oo man this is funy shit GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:21 AM]: its nice to see im not the only one laughin at u Blustar1489 [5:22 AM]: BOOM..that was hard shit...i think the irakeys hit Blustar1489 [5:26 AM]: oo did they get you too.. you gotta tell your grandpa that there are some of your kind Blustar1489 [5:26 AM]: in the us GreeDHaTeEnvY187 [5:27 AM]: ok ..all uz bi0tches who read this and r too busy laughign n rollin on the floor with uncontrolable laughter.. i understand if u dont leave a comment.. 3 ashes | burn it all

[July14,2004|4:55am] and u were able to make me think the impossible was possible. u were able to touch my heart in ways no1 else was ever able to. u were able to make me smile at times no one else was able to. and yet u were tear me apart in the worst ways.. in ways no one else has ever torn me apart. remembered for the best.. remembered for the worst.. burn it all

love is such a small word with such a great definition [July8,2004|8:15pm] wow its really been a long ass time since i wrote in here. i just had this hugr ass argument with my parents about getting my belly button pierced. they think i want it dun so i get guys!! they think ill turn into a slut n shit!! was does every1 think that?! uggh!!!! chris has played with my mind: 3 times!!! burn it all

[June21,2004|12:27pm] [ mood | torn apart ] [ music | kevin little- turn me on ] wow its been a while since i wrote in here and alot has happened. last week i had my last 3 finals. wednesday i took the psat. wednesday i also went to the middle school talent show.. it was aright.. there were a couple good 1s.. rich was in it.. unfortunately. i mean i knew he was but thats aright i guess. he prolly thinks i went just to see him or suttin but whatever. i regret going so badly!!! what i had is back.. and i really wish it wasnt. i think about it and wonder why. i wish someone could help me make it all right. thats all i need right now. is a correction in my life. i wish i could focus on some things instead of others. but hopefully my feelings will go away until next year and i wont have to worry or think about him over the summer.. cuz that will definately ruin it. *he* just has this way that pulls me back in every effin time!!! and it really sucks!! i just want to forget about him and move on liek i was able to b4 i went to the effin talent show!!! ahh!! my life is soo effed up now. it sucks ass. i dont wana spend my whole summer thinking of him. help me sumhow forget about him!! plz!! </3 7 ashes | burn it all

"t h e b i g f o u r" i love you guys so much. thanks for everything. ilu!! [June12,2004|10:49pm] [ mood | thankful ] [ music | nfg- my friends over you ] b l a h b l a h b l a h... im so bored.. ahhh!! wow i really need to study for these effin finals!! they s u c k ass!! today was boring as eff.. i need to go tanning again.. or sumhow i gota get tanned lol. i cant believe i am this bored.. wow i got sum great plans for june 25th.. to the big four: wow guys we r guna hav the best time ever next friday. omg its guna b a night we will never forget. we r guna have a great night. filled with memories we will never forget and laughter.. unstopable laughter. wow sumhow we figure a way to laugh about the funniest and stupidest ish ever. ahh u guys r the greatest. from the laughs to the fights to the cries.. we still stuck together.. but in the end it turns out that all the arguments just made us closer.. i love you guys soo much. i was reading my yesrbook the other day and i wanted to cry. i guys mean so much to me.. never forget eachother cuz ill b by urside forever. jo- ull b in college and sumhow somethign will remind u of us.. and i know it. ull always remember the days of us getting mail at school. and throwing the pens out the windows. or mayb ull remember prom night wen we cried so much for the fact that we were leaving eachother adn we werent guna b in school together for the next 4 years. or member ull b sitting at ur kitchen table and remember wen we made green chocolate frogs for school? or maybe ull b in college studying for a test and eating lunchable nachos.. ull remember in lunch wen u thought there was a clear cover over the cheese and u just stuck ur finger in there n got it everywhere.. haha. we mean so much to eachother but nothing can ever change that cuz i love u sooo much!! sahara desert- ull b lookin out ur window one morning.. maybe the moring b4 u leave to move out of ur house.. and ull see ur neighbor.. and ull remember this "yesterday.. my neighbor.. fell off his ladder.. into a bush!!" we hav been the closest freinds. from the times i envied u in 5th grade to now.. we r soo close.. from the days we played softball together just for fun and to go even further back.. to the day i broke your nose pitching.. u really mean so much to me. my life never would have been the same if u never came into my life and made a differnce. the impact u made will never be changed bc without you.. i wouldnt b who i am today. best friends can sometimes really make a difference and without hisitation i can say u definately did. my mom says that wen she sees us together she wants to cry b.c we have the best times together and its soo upsetting to know that one day.. we may not be as close as we r today. and last but not least... zombie- wow.. we have the best memories.. jlo.. we will always b freinds no matter wat happens. and i knwo u.. ull bcome a veternarian wen u get older.. ull b thinkin of all my dogs or maybe ull become a great dancer.. and ull b thinkin of the trip i went on with u and ur mom and ur sister to atlantic city to ur dance competition.. member how much fun we had. member how we n jasmelina (is that how u spell it?) got into a like a "fight" and we like hated eachother? or maybe ull remember the time in lunch wen we were like making fun of u and u started to cry..? that was funny lol. u n me were friends b4 i was ever friends with ur sister. member how she like hated me? well thanks for always being there.. guys.. we've been through so much but we'll always be b e s t f r i e n d s no matter who or what comes betwen us. no matter wat o b s t a c l e courses come our ways.. we'll always b "the big four". yesterday was different from today and today will b different from tomorrow in many ways. but one way it will always b the same. and thats because we will always be best friends forever. u guys make up my entire heart. and i never want that to change. u guys mean so much to me.. ur like blood to me. id even take a bullet for u guys. i love u guys soo much. ::tear:: xOxO <3 britt memories never to be forgotten: 1. i wana eat twinkies all night.. eat donuts everyday!! 2. brittany and company, brittany and friends 3. hungry hungry hippos 4. holiday room 5. prom and bennigans after 6. my 04 birthday 7. co-op.. i mean yearbook!! 8. cheese catastrophe 9. now i have to pull my down socks up! 10. "the coat" !!!!!! 11. im sure the chipmuncks surse by now!! 12. ...iittss coloring time! 13. do u yahoo or yoohoo? 14. the crocadile hunter 15. throwing pens out the window 16. flint!! 17. questions? comments? problems? concerns? suggestions? call 1-800-IAMDUMB 18. satisf-I-ction 19. have fun with perscents!! % 20. eww u look like a zombie!! 21. 8A weather forecast 22. bathroom is a bad word!! 23. ar.. air.. its everywhere! 24. all scientists hate animals, esp. the ones in labs. pg.52 #10 25. how was ireland?.. i mean england!! 26. r u serious? no im sirius black! 27. where am i kid 28. attention all beefsteak lovers! 29. the "yellow" arrow 30. take me to the river!! drop me in the water!! 31. how do i get clip art? 32. my stomach tickles! 33. there has to b a 6 in there somewhere... 34. i put george custer! 35. shes looking at us like we r from mars! 36. whats that on the blackboard? 37. player position.. prayer position 38. eufranium 39. britt, plz b quiet. there r others who r tryig to work dilligently! 40. i smell pancakes!!!! ..................and many many many more!!! burn it all

>>we could fall apart and id be your m e m o r y...<< [June12,2004|1:54pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | sugarcult- memory ] SUGARCULT LYRICS "Memory" This may never start. We could fall apart. And I'd be your memory. Lost your sense of fear. Feelings insincere. Can I be your memory? So get back, back, back to where we last stand. Just like I imagine. I could never feel this way. So get back, back, back to the disaster. My heart's beating faster. Holding on to feel the same. This may never start. I'll tear us apart. Cannot be your enemy. Losing half a year. Waiting for you here I'd be your anything. So get back, back, back to where we last stand. Just like I imagine. I could never feel this way. So get back, back, back to the disaster. My heart's beating faster. Holding on to feel the same. This may never start. Tearing out my heart. I'd be your memory. Lost your sense of fear. (I'd be your memory) Feelings disappear. Can I be your memory? So get back, back, back to where we last stand. Just like I imagine. I could never feel this way. So get back, back, back to the disaster. My heart's beating faster. Holding on to feel the same. This may never start. We could fall apart And I'd be your memory. Lost your sense of fear. Feelings insincere. Can I be your memory? <3 bRitt 3 ashes | burn it all

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